Tomorrow is my birthday. It is usually a time for great celebration, however, I have been sick in bed with a cold/ cough and sinuses issues with body aches and fever. I didn’t even get to really celebrate Independence Day this year. It feels like I am on the tail end of the cold so maybe I will arise tomorrow refreshed.
Physically I have not been doing well and emotionally it has been a bit of a roller coaster as well. Spiritually however, things have been great for the most part. I feel like I am gaining a lot of momentum (see: energy) at high speeds almost too much to capture and really get to settle into. Even during this time of being physically sick I have been getting inspirational ideas, thoughts and motivation – only those which I know come from my connection to source, the Universe, God/Spirit.
In the past couple of weeks the energy around me has been feeling very interesting. About a month or so ago it felt stagnant with no movement. Empty almost – for lack of a better word. More recently I have been having a lot of AHA! moments. Much synchronicity. I have seen the right messages at the right time. I have been seeing my favorite numbers everywhere. I have met people that make things connect the dots on certain aspects of my life. I have been getting what I like to call winks from the universe. Those moments in time in which you feel like the universe is nodding its head and saying “yes, keep going – you are on the right path.”
When I get these winks from the universe I know that something big is about to happen. It doesn’t necessarily mean big as in size but big as in momentum. Big as in change. Big as in I have been preparing for this for awhile and once it occurs it may stir things up but once it settles I will cozy myself into it.
For awhile I have been feeling myself falling into old patterns and my decline in mental clarity provided proof of that. I was also having random moments of insomnia which I hadn’t been experiencing for quite some time. Due to this I have been working on my physical health and overall well being a lot recently. I started working out and try to pick better food options. I have been trying to work on my mental health as well. Just overall the whole package.
Once I became committed the Universe put things into place so that I could start training with a coach at a price I could afford. I found great prices on clothes and shoes to start working out in because I had to get new running shoes and more recently I had to replace my running spandex because I lost weight so they were falling off my body as I ran. I also continued to receive positive feedback from friends, family and even strangers. It was again winks from the universe to keep going.
As I’ve been recovering from this cold and sinus issue I have been doing a lot of thinking. One thing I realized is I had told myself “I really wish I could just take a week of from work and relax” – so what happened? I got sick and been off from work nearly a week. I need to be more careful about what I put out there – I often get it.
Aside from that realization I have also been thinking a lot about the things I have been putting on the back burner for far too long – my blogging and writing, my beauty business and my decision to continue my education. Between coughing, sneezing, using up a whole box of tissue and sleeping I have had many moments in between where I have been inspired and moved to pick up a notepad and write everything down that spirit is feeding to me.
I love those moments, however, I realized the moment I had the other evening was a lot of downloading. It was partial channeled writing and partial brain dump of all the “stuff” that has just been sitting in my mind for months (and some even years). It was such a rush at the time and felt great when the energy slowed but then it felt like I had went on a hike or something so I had to go and lay my head down to process everything.
I have been noticing that in the past couple of days especially the winks from the universe have increased significantly everyday and I have been getting messages to stay on course. When this type of energy builds up I have those moments where I hold my breath because I’m not sure what is going to happen but recently I have been getting this feeling (and the messages affirm this) that good is coming. What I have been longing for is coming into fruition. I am loving all of theses winks from the universe. I am ready for this expansion. I am ready for this major growth towards good.
I am posting this without editing at this time as I feel that this is how it should be shared. Raw and untouched, just as it came flowing out of me this morning. I may be back at another time to go ahead and edit it and move paragraphs around, add headings and all that jazz but I hope you enjoyed this read and take this as your own wink from the universe.
